This post is just bullshit because a lot of things that have happened it's too much to type. But I am looking for picutres of ReitaxAoi!! Someone help!!!!!

This is so fucking funny, I had to add it.

They took my brother away to LCJJC Friday when I was gone. I knew something was wrong when I called my mother and she nearly cryed just talking to me. I didn't get to give him a hug goodbye and plus, my mother said they might take him somewhere out of lubbock..or state I can't remember...but that doesn't really matter, it's the fact that he is gone.

My mother is also making me sad. I think she is going crazy, literally. Not to mention she is always in the house, and hardly leaves unless she has too. I want to desperatly get her out and start making her...well not to seem mean but...sane. And to top it off I think my grandmother will die in a few years at most...so for all of those who know me, love me and think I have been fine...I haven't I am depressed horribly once again and have been thinking about cutting. Not only does my family need help but so do I.

I guess this is my cry for help...

Okay...yeah Life sucks. As always. But even more now. Everything for me is falling aparting into tiny pieces that will take a long time to pick up off the dirty floor...once again.

I feel that I am losing everything and there is nothing I can do about. One of my friend's seems to not care about me anymore. The guy I still liked even after he broke my heart isnt allowed at my house anymore and it doesnt seem to bother him. I found out my poor brother is a skitzo and my mother is going insane. If I dont find a single breath of release it will be covered in darkness and it will all end.

Just read:

I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.

I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.

I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.

We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.

I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.

I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.

I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.

I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.

We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.

I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.

I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.

I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.

I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.

I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.

I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didn’t have to always deal with society hating me.

I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.

I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.

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On a lighter note...

I can't find music from Bis ANYWHERE!!! I know they are indie and all, but are they that damn indie? If anyone can help with music from them, pictures of info...please tell me.

 A really awesome picture of Reita I got from my friends website

www.freewebs.com/anti_pop

A great gazette site

 in this picture I think Ruki [the one in the diver seat] looks like Kyo here.

Bai Bai

Jessy

Wow!! WOW WOW WOW! I wish to be living in Japan more than ever right now. I just found out that Miyavi, Kagraa, Gazette, Alice Nine, and Kra are all going on tour together. It's called the Peace & Smile Carnival tour!!! Wow, I listen and loooove all thos bands, or person, except for Kra. But that is because I haven't heard any of their songs.

Wow so excited..like I am going. But not. Anyways, just thought those Jrock fans out there who haven't heard..should.

Here is one of the best DeG songs/video's..to me It's probably me, but Kyo looks uber sexy.

http://www.youtube.com/?v=o1n4HlGnGaM